Nobody tells first-time aspirants how long this actually takes. Somewhere between the second and third year, the initial motivation that got you started runs out.
1. Separate the exam from your self-worth
A poor mock score is information about that test, on that day. It is not a verdict on you as a person.
2. Build a routine that doesn't depend on motivation
A fixed daily routine means your preparation keeps moving even on the days you don't feel like it.
3. Talk to someone who isn't also an aspirant
Deliberately keeping at least one relationship outside that world gives you somewhere to be a whole person, not just a candidate.
4. Expect the dip — don't panic when it arrives
Almost every long-term aspirant hits a stretch where nothing feels like it's working. This is common enough to be expected.
5. Revisit your "why" on a schedule, not just in a crisis
A short, regular check-in — even once a month — keeps your reasons current instead of stale.
If you're finding the weight of this genuinely hard to carry, that's worth talking to someone about — a coach, a counsellor, or a trusted person in your life. Preparation is demanding; it isn't meant to be carried alone.